These things happen all the time i tell you, thats what my mind tells me.But never have i been so scared of my fear. Oow Ghostly one , i fear you so much that i cannot think or do anything without fearing what your judgement would be . Even when i do no wrong i cannot defend myself from your degrading accusations as i feel and seem guilty as charged. i find that for me to be set free from the shackles that bind me in your judgemental eyes i have to apologies. But today i feel that saying sorry would be me saying sorry for being real.
i accept that i live under you my fear i live in your honour , i sometimes wonder what would life be with out you and the thoughts that do enter my mind are not as safe or as pleasant as being scared or terrified of you.I'm a boy on his last cry , ow my gosh did i just refer to myself as a boy in this world of strong men .Jesus i hope i dont regret what i'v just said in this world of dog eats dog/eat or be eaten.My fear you have made me lose myself in that i'v morphed my exterior to the picture that you'v moulded my inside to be OLD, WEARY,TERRIFIED.SCARED and SOULLESS.My fear i submit to you because i fear you.
Profound!
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